Almost Over

Today is the third day of our last week out. We are starting to do things for the very last time. It's very bitter sweet for me. I am so going to miss doing and being around this job and the people around me. I'm going to miss doing ministry 24/7. I'm excited the most about getting to sleep and sleeping in comfy beds. We get to sleep in hotels for 2 nights on our way home. I'm a little excited about that. No more cafeteria food. No more awful beds. But also no more great conversations. No more being around my awesome teammates 24/7. It's going to be crazy and weird at the same time. 

I have so much that I've been reflecting on. I've been reflecting on my struggles and what God's been teaching me this summer. I've been reflecting on the awesome experiences that I have had this summer. I do realize that it's not over. I still have 2 days left. I can't even believe that I'm saying that right now. It seems like just yesterday I was just meeting my team. My team has now been my family for 7 weeks and I can't even fathom what it's going to be like without them. It's going to be so strange.  I'm not really ready for school and being done. 

Last night, our team just sat around a hot spring (they have 20 of them around this campus) and reflected on our "pit" for this summer. We have been talking about the Joseph story all summer and about how he rose up out of his pit. I would say my pit would be trying to be perfect at my job. It's a constant struggle for me. I hate getting my work wrong. I hate making mistakes. It kills me from the inside out to get something wrong. I fell back into that pit this summer. If I made a mistake, I just wanted to sit there and cry about it (which is never a good solution). I would fix it then cry later. It's so hard for me to fail. I absolutely hate failing at anything. It was such a great conversation to have with my teammates though. It gave me more insight into my teammates and how their summer has gone.

Thanks for all of the prayers over me this summer!