Growing Up

     This week, I have realized that I am growing up.  I'm excited but still have those scared emotions going through my head.  One thing that keeps me going is that fact that I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I can see me actually having a job and being able to support myself.  I have many decisions that I have to start to make.
     I went to the Fall 2014 Student Teaching meeting this week.  They talked about everything that we have to do within the month.  Feeling overwhelmed is an understatement!  Not only do I have to fill out my application to Student Teach, I have to fill out my graduation application, meet with my adviser, make sure that everything on my e-portfolio is up to date (its not), write an autobiography, sign up for the Praxis test, and not freakout!  There is so much to do and only a month to do it!  On top of that, I have all my school work that still has to get done!  This is by far my hardest semester yet!  So many class equals so much homework!  My classes are all upper level classes for the most part which means they expect a lot more out of you than the classes from before.  
     I've started realizing that I am about to be an adult and have to get a "big girl" job.  That's what all my friends call it.  So many questions and options are going through my head!  Where am I going to be placed during student teaching?  Where am I going to work after I graduate?  When am I going to move out of my Mom's house?  How am I going to support myself?  Where am I going to go to graduate school?  What am I going to get my master's degree in?  
     I can't even believe that I am starting to think about graduate programs! I really am growing up! Remember all those times that I changed my major (more times than I am willing to admit)?  That will not happen when trying to decide what master's program I want to go for.  I will only stick to one!  You can hold me to that!  I have narrowed it down to two, but I'm more worried about the school!  Graduate programs are expensive!
     God has continued to show me how fortunate I really am right here and right now.  I continues to tell me to live today and not worry about what's going on in the future.  I will guide and take care of me.  It so hard not to worry though.  I have to learn that God is in control.  God is guiding me through this chaos called life and will help me make those life changing decisions when they come up. 

Kristin